Tuesday, January 26, 2010 at 12:59 AM

My heart hurts.....


Edit : And now you've ripped it apart into pieces and shoved it down the drain.
Monday, January 25, 2010 at 9:27 PM
I'm in a rut!


I'm so mentally and physically drained that even a long night's sleep can't help. I've been bombarded with so many worries and thoughts I don't even know what to do. And me being so egoistic doesn't allow me to spill my worries to just anyone. I hate the feeling of caring and loving someone so much that eventually I have to depend on them. Whatever choices I make is for their sake as well. I don't mind situations like that but when things go sour, I can't stop thinking of that someone no matter what I do. It's just so hard to forget and this is definitely the first time I've felt so strongly about this bond between us. I can't seem to let go and I don't want to. But it hurts so much that you feel like you're stranded on a desert 500 miles away from a nice cold dessert or being ignored by someone for that matter. Sigh. Someone please kill me.
at 9:20 PM

Its been a week since the family is here and it's been really fun to have them around after not seeing them for a year. Being a tour guide is so tiring considering I'm still working part time and having to prepare for my supplementary exam. I've never felt this worn out in such a long time that sometimes I just want to lie down and never wake up. But it's good having them around as they help clean up the house even though I told them not to. And I haven't been feeling well lately due to my recurring asthma that came back from 3 years ago! Breathing was so hard for me that I couldn't get enough sleep for 3 nights in a row.


At times like these, I feel like work has become a burden and I feel like quitting. But I've been getting alot of shifts lately which I need to cover my expenses especially the eating out and shopping with the family.


Highlights of the week include going to fish market, Birkenhead point, and crashing at a relative's place in Cronulla.



















There's just so much food that I'm pretty sure I'm gaining weight even though I'm controlling my intake. We also manage to go on a boat ride courtesy of my uncle on Sunday.







Ricky Ponting's house!!










View from the balcony.






at 2:28 AM


I no longer feel wanted or needed anymore.


Bye.
Friday, January 15, 2010 at 1:57 AM


Today, life as we know has ended. No more late nights of supper or mahjong. My dearest LY has gone back to Malaysia for a whole 2 months and my family will be here in 4 days. I'm already missing her as she waved goodbye before heading into the departure hall. Gone are the days where I could just see her anytime I want, even at work. At least she won't be missing Sydney too much seeing how much home sweet home has to offer for her. I hope she puts on weight and eats more food like her steam fish and teo chew porridge. Don't forget to buy me something too!


Prior to her final days in Sydney before her departure, we had dinner at Arisun with a few of her MASA buddies. Dinner was pretty decent and we had fun. Pictures will do the talking.



Hand towels that resembled marshmellows.











I didn't get to take the famous fried chilli chicken as we couldn't wait to dig in. We even got a chance to meet up with Kenny and Andre for late supper and went back to help the lovergirl with her last minute packing.


I'm already missing her so much and 2 months feel like a longgggggg way to go.


Wednesday, January 13, 2010 at 3:00 AM


Today marks the end of our last mahjong/poker/left for dead 2 session with LY as she'll be going back for the holidays. I'll miss her ALOT for the next two months. *tears trickling down my cheek*








PS : I'm sorry I won so many chips from poker. =)
Tuesday, January 12, 2010 at 1:27 AM
I love my dslr!!!hahaha..It's been more than a month and I can't seem to get tired of it. Special thanks to LY for acquiring the purchase for me. Couldn't have done it without her. I don't even feel the need for a point and shoot anymore, cept maybe to give Nigel's LX3 a whirl. =)



That's my baby right there!






Being random with my dslr.


Another week till I get to see my family again. And my sister will be taking my camera hostage I reckon! Miss that little fatty bom bom....heheh..


PS : I'll miss the other lady that's going back to Malaysia too!
Sunday, January 10, 2010 at 4:31 PM


Sydney Festival, a day of performing arts and music started on Saturday and I decided to check it out with LY and everywhere was crazy! It felt like another celebration resembling NYE and everywhere was packed to the brims! The festival was spread out at different locations throughout the city, each featuring different genres such as techno, instrumental, and cultural music just to name a few. The weather wasn't too bad but walking around the whole city feels stuffy with all the crowds.
















I didn't stick around for the lights after dark but instead watched sherlock holmes after dinner and it was gooooood! I'm guessing there's a sequel to it. 


Saturday, January 09, 2010 at 12:01 AM
Wishing you and everyone out there a late happy new year! The year has come and gone so fast I feel I need to slow down. Age is creeping up on me...fast! Seems like most of my peers have graduated leaving me in the dust. Can't complain being a uni student, but earning the moolah doesn't seem like a bad idea too.

I plan not to have new year's resolutions seeing I can't keep them anyway. I might as well just focus on improving myself in every way and the face challenges with the best smile possible. LOL. Easy peasy. Spend my new year's eve at Pyrmont with LY and Andre at our secret undisclosed location. It wasn't crowded at all and the sea breeze kept us cool! Too bad the smoke was blowing in our direction which blocked some parts of the fireworks.











I couldn't take decent pictures during the fireworks and I'll blame that on the lack of a tripod. And most of my pictures are shot using a prime lens hence, the lack of zooming in. 


My days seem to pass by too fast. LY is leaving in less than a week and my family will be here soon. In such a short time, my life involved work, mahjong, left for dead 2, online-ing, mahjong. I feel like I need a change and a part of me wishes that I was back in KK. I even wonder if my friends back home misses me or not. LOL. 






Cupcakes courtesy of Meike.

I've been spending quite alot on misc stuff recently and I even have the urge to buy new lens. Sigh. At least I finally got a wireless router for the house. 
I WANT MORE $$$$$$!